I am worried that I will be in a depressed state soon. This scares me.
Countless sleepless nights; losing appetite; unmotivated in doing anything. I lose the interest in anything, including blogging.
I like the morning feels, enjoying coffee, eating breakfast... but now I am scared of it. Nothing for me to do, like literally nothing. I am just wake up and stare at the wall and worry on the interview result.
I miss the old days busying with assignments, part-time jobs, curricular activities. At least, I got something to fight with. I know what I strive for.
Reality hits you hard.
You want to step out of comfort zone but they require someone have experience.
You gonna be rejected anyway even doctor prove that you are at a stable level and job would not be affected.
You gonna failed anyway even you have spent 8 hours to do company research and proposal because there are over 500 candidates to compete just for one position.
You gonna wait for 2 months for job confirmation and in the end you lose another job.
You gonna be insulted by interviewer in the fucking ridiculous way.
You gonna be unappreciated by interviewers as there are far better and experienced candidates.
I am scared.
